Ashley Needles

Finally dating a man who is childfree. Before this I'd only dated one other who was childfree but that relationship didn't last long. I now get why the childfree community is all about only dating other childfree people. I feel truly accepted by my significant other. I get the whole being on the same page thing. It isn't just being child free though, we're both non religious, highly into psychology and self development, and good with money. However the childfree aspect specifically has brought to light many areas of fulfillment my previous relationships were missing. I feel secure in the relationship at a level I never have. Once my husband left for another woman because he knocked her up... I didn't feel like I was enough. In this relationship, I feel powerful. I don't question my choices, i.e. wondering how much I should sacrifice to make my partner happy and what compromises I should make. I feel accepted as a woman. He doesn't question if I have maternal...

We finally went on a second date! He was so excited to see me he didn't get much sleep the night before. A photo of Res by himself since the lighting in the one of us together made his blond hair fall out.  🤣 😂 😜 When I arrived he had this box waiting.  He made it for me during our time apart and filled it with treats for Messy and gifts for me. I like him because while he's not perfect, he tries. He admits his weaknesses, can say sorry, and accepts that I'm flawed too. We have a lot of common values and beliefs,...           So maybe... Maybe, it's time to hope for more than a glimpse of what could be. Maybe this time my heart won't get broken and maybe the guy who's easy to talk to, who thinks I walk on water, who is understanding, full of patience and incredibly kind will stay for more than a few precious moments in my life...

So as my video (about not dating single dads) was uploading yesterday, I took Messy on a walk, during which we met a HOT single dad , his six-year-old daughter and their dog. As we talked he learned I'm nomadic, child-free and he still asked for my number... I hesitated but gave him the digits. Suspecting he isn't looking to settle down or for anything serious... My thoughts, it might be fun for a bit, maybe he'll be interesting, maybe I'll learn something through dating him... Suddenly today I realized the oddity in how I view dating compared to most people. I have no hope or expectations of long term. And maybe that's why my relationships are fleeting but deliciously sweet because I don't feel bitterness when things inevitably end. Or maybe my relationships have the shelf life of a ripe banana because as we parted ways I noticed a text from the guy who thinks I walk on water but lives 2 hours away... telling me to call him and so before I was even out of ear...

Okay, maybe I've become too much of a hermit and too picky since my last relationship about a year ago. My neighbor's friend is now teasing me about the lack of men or man in my life. I'd like to tell him he's wrong, but in the last year I've gone out on less dates than I have fingers on one hand. I just haven't been that interested in the guys I've met. Mostly I just don't feel like there is much point to dating or relationships anymore. While there is currently a guy who thinks I walk on water and who calls everyday, he lives almost 2 hours away and so while it's nice, we've had one date, haven't kissed and I'm completely okay with that. Right now what most excites me are a few set goals I have. I feel excited about the days where I make $1200 or make progress in some other way. I want to get back to writing and I want to get a degree and I want to build my residuals up high enough to live on without working so I can focus on writing an...

David, I want you to know I am grateful for how everything happened. I never thought I could be so happy! There are days I cry because the joy is overwhelming.  A lot of that is due to you. After you left me I did a lot of inner work. Because I admired your drive and determination to deal with life I went through tons of hypnosis at first just to ease the pain then for success and drive. I also got super into personal development and neuropsychology which helped me gain an understanding of why we didn't work well together and why I was unhappy when we were married.  Turns out I'm an island wave personality one of the hardest to deal with and I apologize for that.  In our relationship you became the over functioning partner and I spiraled into under-functioning afraid to own my power or acknowledge my needs which caused me to get super depressed.  Being an island personality type when I feel someone holding onto me I retreat emotionally and i...

For the beginning chapters of this adventure click below: NO GREATER LOVE ,               PART TWO                      PART THREE                  The social worker was right behind Alex, her eyes were also wide. "I'm so sorry, I don't know how she found out we were going to be here."             Alex knelt down in front of Angie, hugging her tight to his chest. "It's okay," Alex said in his overly polite walking on glass voice. " Can you make sure she doesn't um follow us in here and that we don't run into her on the way out, please?" The social worker was already nodding. "I uh, don't mean to be a burden, I just don't know what she'll do." Alex finished letting Angie go. As he did, Angie grabbed his hand. Alex hated to ask anything of anyone. He was one of those people who felt...

I feel so blessed. I just finished processing some things with M. He validated my feelings understood my confusion and did all the things I needed to feel sane again as my world and emotions were once again flipped over and muddled up. His ability to listen as I sorted out my new reality and dealt with the cancellation of my favorite real life comedy were epic. He gave me hope that tomorrow my feelings of schadenfreude might return and my unhealthy empathy might pass. While we talked I got a call from another who has been asking to be made into a rock in my life and while it didn't go so great probably due to Justin having a migraine and a misunderstanding of the situation I was so lucky to be cared about enough that he was willing to set aside not feeling great to try to be there. Sometimes it's too much. Sometimes it's overwhelming to be given such perfect love and sacrifice as I have been given by so many of you, by M, by Sam and by Justin. I was ne...