"Happy as a Clam"
I called M, I tried calling others first but they were busy. I've been told by a mutual friend that I toy and play with his emotions and treat him unfairly. I've been told that unless I want to be with him, I shouldn't have contact. I always make justifications... it's just this once... I've been so good... etc... the list goes on. I called. He answered. He listened while I ranted. He gave selflessly as I told him about my frustrations and how I feel like a failure. I whined about the things not working in my life. He told me I was brave and strong and that I was doing my best. He assured me it was enough and if things got really bad he would be there. We talked about history, about plague victims being volleyed over walls to infect those within in Europe. We talked about China and the Silk Road about movies and tv and how he loves trivia. He asked when I last read for pleasure and not some business or self-deve...