Ashley Needles

Let me first give an anonymous thanks to the person who inspired this blog! You ROCK! You recently wrote a comment on my facebook page , "I decided mlm's are inherently disingenuous and beneath me. Little guys never become big guys with out selling a physical product and not even then. Check out sendoutcards. It's a excellent product but the little guy never gets rich." Let's delve into this shall we? MLM's can absolutely be run by disingenuous people but I doubt the founders of Walmart, Amazon or McDonalds know my name or care if I get crushed by a truck on the highway. By such standard a lot of companies are disingenuous and beneath your standards. That's okay.  It isn't the least bit ridiculous to want an entire company to care! Sadly, we don't live  in an ideal world so expecting it requires living outside of reality. I think what you saying is you were burned badly by a sponsor or maybe several sponsors and your feelings are completely valid. ...

It was supposed to be an ordinary day, but a feeling something was going to go horribly wrong kept me awake the night before. I waited six months, because the first time they mentioned the routine procedure and the risks I knew my daughter was going to end up dead, or brain damaged.  I thought I'd waited long enough. After six months I believed things would be ok.  I told myself to relax and stop being paranoid. I shouldn't have. The anesthesiologist with tears in his eyes told me, "I'm not going to lie, she's not doing good. This is the worst day of my career." He was thinking of his career while my little girl was fighting for her life!?  He felt bad so I said simply, "I know you tried your best," wondering if my happy sweet little girl would ever smile at me again. There was no point in making a scene. It wouldn't save her. It might kill her. I had to step back and breathe. I needed to focus on giving her all the love a...

At last, it was time to stop for the night. The hotel was the cheapest we could find.  Angie excited to be with her dad jumped from one bed to the next. I would be sleeping on the floor tonight. Alice was running out of pills and her anxiety was climbing. She and Angie would be taking the beds.    A knock came, the hotel clerk delivering the extra room cards I'd requested. Angie dived into hiding. Alex gently convinced her to come out. Angie had been forced to hide for months. From neighbors, from cops, from the sun, and the carefree existence of childhood. My heart ached for her.  The trauma of the last few months and the excitement of being with her dad finally took its toll and she fell into a deep sleep.  At last, I could ask Alex about what happened at the courthouse.  Angie's grandmother accused Alex of vile perverted acts begging the court not to return Angie to her father. Angie's social worker took the stand denying the false claims and insisted it...

Being pregnant, I've noticed something, everyone and I mean everyone tells my partner what to do for me. "Rub her feet," "Rub her back," "Make her take it easy," etc. and while I have to say I'm a huge fan of massages and putting my feet up, and all this advice is well intentioned, people don't know my partner.  Res tries to give me massages but ninety nine percent of the time his hands are cut up from being a mechanic, electrician, plumber and more. He works himself to the bone in bitter cold and blistering heat and when people tell him all the things they think he should be doing for me, that he just can't, he feels like crap.  He is doing more than one person should ever have to do. To me, he is a super hero without the tacky cape. Today he worked on his sister's car, his grandfather's van, and a truck to sell for some extra cash to feed and cloth our baby, then he did a mountain of dishes by hand.  While I've cooked a few th...

My life is really good right now, and while I work to meet my goals of increasing my income and becoming a great author, I'm happy. Happy is an amazing way to live yet some people believe they will only be happy if: If they have a relationship, if they lose weight, if they get a better job, etc. There are so many excuses people give for not being happy. Some of which are legitimate i.e. abnormal circumstances, but most people make the choices that create or continue their unhappiness. They choose to stay with a job they hate, they choose to stay in a marriage that sucks the life out of them, they choose to watch CSI and Criminal Minds, and drink too much alcohol or otherwise pollute their bodies and minds with depressing things. (As someone prone to depression I can attest to how much tv shows affect mood, life, and mindset.) Learning to confront depression head-on has been an incredible journey. (Something that should be taught in every high school so kids don't end up ...

 What you eat while you're pregnant affects not just your baby but your grandchildren and great-grandchildren! Wondering what you can do to give your baby pink hair? I have no idea... beets maybe? ;)  While I may not be able to help you out on that one I have a few tips that can help your pregnancy produce a baby that doesn't turn into a super crazy teenager!  To prevent depression start with quercetin, add in some DHA, EPA, and L-Methylfolate, not just to prevent spinal bifida but to increase IQ and prevent other neural tube defects. If you want to go a step further and prevent a child from being born with a brain primed for anxiety and OCD disorders add in some magnesium L-threonate, magnesium glycinate, and magnesium Taurate.  In people with the gene CACNA1C, their brain cells can't properly control the intake of calcium and it attacks their neurons unless of course, you provide your baby with a nutritional modifier for the intake. Calcium and ...

Finally dating a man who is childfree. Before this I'd only dated one other who was childfree but that relationship didn't last long. I now get why the childfree community is all about only dating other childfree people. I feel truly accepted by my significant other. I get the whole being on the same page thing. It isn't just being child free though, we're both non religious, highly into psychology and self development, and good with money. However the childfree aspect specifically has brought to light many areas of fulfillment my previous relationships were missing. I feel secure in the relationship at a level I never have. Once my husband left for another woman because he knocked her up... I didn't feel like I was enough. In this relationship, I feel powerful. I don't question my choices, i.e. wondering how much I should sacrifice to make my partner happy and what compromises I should make. I feel accepted as a woman. He doesn't question if I have maternal...