April Fools: A Powerful Message!

Harlequin didn't call me about "The Best Bad Boy," to be quite frank it isn't even ready for submission.

I've been struggling though lately with my confidence as an author and well just my confidence in general. It's just part of what happens when people decide to give you their wonderfully negative opinion of you, even if you don't want it and didn't ask for it.

I could pretend to be like "Oh yeah show those haters," like some people would but I'm unfortunately not wired that way. I'm wired normal, which means other people's opinions do affect me. They don't, however, get to create my reality.

The wonderful thing about adulting is, you are the designer of your life! If you are feeling bad you can choose to spend time with people who make you feel better.

I'm a bit late getting around to writing this blog. April fools was a week ago. This year I did an April fools status with dream adjacent because while I'd never prank about my actual dreams which are rather serious I will prank with dream adjacent.

The love and support I received was incredible! Seeing people like and believe in even a fake April fool's status about me getting one step closer to becoming a highly successful author was exactly what I needed to get me finishing "Falling Moon: Part Two."

So I wanted to make a blog about those people and list each by name, but I'm still in a bit of a funk and overwhelmed at the moment, so I'm cheating it and just doing a copy paste. Far quicker! Apologies to those who don't want the profiles made public I'm too tired to check that atm but if you have a problem let me know and I will delete later.

Trisha, we're friends I just didn't copy that last part. Sorry didn't realize it would make you look excluded.

Anyway, these 21 people are rockstars for giving me the love and encouragement I needed in that moment!

So what does all this have to do with you?

Next April fools you get to see who believes in you reaching your dreams and those people who really are fools in your life that you need to let go of.

People who believe in you are priceless! They are the best kind of friends to have in a world that isn't fair or when life comes at you sideways.

So take a moment and think about what your dream status will be and who is going to love it like it and who is going to dismiss it or worse put it down and question you for having it?

All my love and I can't wait to see where you decide to go in life!

Ashley

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