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Incredible!

A great peace has washed over me the last few days. It's amazing how being lied about and condemned publicly set me free.


For so long fear held me hostage. I expected the world to turn on me and see me the way my persecutor did. I lived in hiding ashamed of my cowardice and convinced of my insignificance. I wanted so badly to just disappear completely.

Years went by while I suffered silently knowing that at some point the ticking time bomb was going to go off. Abusive emails twisted and confused the truth, speaking falsehoods with conviction suffocated me. At times, I could barely breathe because of the weight and I would wonder if I was crazy.

Tick... tick... tick... went the time bomb day after day and like an Alfred Hitchcock marathon the suspense frayed at my nerves.

Finally, the bomb went off.

Instead of my life blowing up into a million pieces and losing so many dear and wonderful friendships, the bomb had over time without my awareness transformed into an overwhelming blessing.

His desire to control me and force me to do his will ended up destroying many of his relationships sadly.

Meanwhile, when the mask came off and he revealed his true nature, wonderfully kind and compassionate souls flocked around me protecting me with their love and empathy! Because of these genuine and caring angels on earth, his words held no power to hurt or even anger me.

Instead, the abuse and hatred transformed into a beautiful gift. I was showered with love from everywhere! Strangers I never met, flowed into my life with concern and understanding!

I will never be able to comprehend how it happened. To me, it seems like an impossible miracle.

The bomb I'd been so afraid of, the rage that held me in fear wasn't a bomb at all. It was an explosion of goodness.

Sometimes we get depressed about the world and lose faith in humanity. From online trolls, bad internet dates, videos of people hurting animals, tide pod challenges and a million other horrible things make it hard to keep believing in the goodness of people, but it's still there.

This experience showed me that no matter what the media may want to tell us, people are still inherently kind, inherently wonderful! There are of course exceptions to every rule, but those exceptions are lessons.

We must be patient through our trials and kind to our adversaries. It is through fortitude, patience, and kindness miracles happen.

I am no one special, I give up too easily, procrastinate everything, forget important events, and have a laundry list of flaws a hundred miles long, yet despite all these things so many fantastic people are cheering me on. It doesn't make sense, there's no explanation for it, except one:

When we are kind even to those who don't deserve it, we are blessed. 







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