Ashley Needles

I was assaulted at 12:46 this morning. I had to claw a guy's face I'd just met because he grabbed me and tried to force me to kiss him. I made a facebook post about it... this is in response to some of the comments. It was going to be a facebook post but it got long and growly so copy paste and blog Ta-da! After it happened I called M, he listened while I cried and ranted. I'm talked out now... but thank you to those that offered to listen you're awesome! I will be better after some sleep. I'm blessed that so many of you want to be there for me and I know that me not letting you be there hurts our friendship. It's instinct to turn to M. He's been my rock through so much so many will never understand. He's the one who knows what to say and do to make everything better... sometimes just hearing his voice is all I need. I can't talk about so much with all of you... for my safety I've had to be private about certain details. A...

So there are a lot of possible reasons you might be single. Most likely it's because you need a great therapist.  I know I do! But maybe just maybe it's something else. Something no one is telling you. Nearly two years ago I went out with a guy who had a fascinating stable job, he was funny, smart, a great listener, he had lean muscles, sparkling blue eyes, a jawline you could cut gems with. He kissed me and instead of fireworks I could almost hear a toilet exploding. His breath, the taste of his mouth was that bad. I politely offered him a mint and when he refused I got blunt. VERY BLUNT.            He accepted the mint and kissed me again. The mint didn't help. It was awful. His tongue was like a brown log being pushed into my mouth. I pulled away again. When he kept trying to kiss me after that and after I explained my problem I started to feel assaulted. If he hadn't been so overly forceful I might have gone out with him aga...

"Sometimes I want to cry because of the terrible beauty of the world. So stark and poignant, when I dare to look, my heart begs me to close my eyes and my mind forces amazement into mundane."    -Ashley's journal When I'm sad, like a wounded animal I shy away from others and only let Sam, M, my mom, the occasional girlfriend I've been hanging out with and the guy I'm dating close. Hurting reined in and broken. Strong noble friends surround me. I seek fire and closeness with one. Until it becomes too much and I am again alone. As a single teen, I would medicate sorrow and depression with dating. As a single adult, there's too much pressure, crazies and ghosts of bad experiences for it to be an effective therapy. I have so many wonderful online friends who are willing and wanting me to talk their ears off, and I wish I could let down my walls and trust that who I am won't be a disappointment compared to the expect...

If you missed Part 1 Click HERE For Part 2 Click HERE The social worker said it shouldn't take long, fifteen to twenty minutes max. An hour dragged by. Angie's eyes began darting up towards the door every few minutes. "What's going on?" She asked sensing something was up. "Your daddy is just in there giving the judge some paperwork so the judge can let him take you home," I said also wondering what was taking so long. Another hour dragged by. Angie's belly grumbled. We went into the hall and asked the woman who had scolded me for letting Angie jump off the stacks of boxes if Angie could have some of the Cheetos we saw her eating. She gave Angie a few which quickly disappeared and Angie was asking for more. While Angie was paying attention to Cheetos and charming the girl at the desk, I noticed an armed policeman now outside the door. Angie and I were the only ones behind the door. 104 Packs for 39.99. Great for Halloween! ...

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