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My Dear Child

 Your father and I weren't expecting you. You were the life change neither of us planned on. The best things in life sometimes happen that way. 


My sweet child, let life surprise you and be glad for all the twists and bends and all the things that don't turn out exactly the way you plan. Predictable is boring.

As your mother, I want to give you everything. I want to be the perfect mom you deserve. Unfortunately my little one, I am still very human. I'm going to make mistakes and mess up, but I will always do my best. In life that's all anyone can do. 

I hope you allow yourself the gift of failure. Failure is the stepping stone to success. Celebrate your failures. Without failure, life would be boring. The most difficult circumstances are the most interesting. 

Those who endure difficulty with passionate perseverence are the most fascinating villains, heroes, and people.

If you can be positive during difficulties you're already on your way to overcoming any problem. 

Remember to find the good in every person, day, and situation. Some people will hate you for this, others might think you are fake or callous, but their opinions don't matter. What matters is being happy and making it contagious. 

Be determined to be happy but not all the time. It's okay to feel down, or sad but if you dwell in misery you practice being miserable and it becomes easier to stay that way, but the only way out of those emotions is allowing them to pass through you even when you'd rather run from the pain you must embrace it to be whole.

By allowing yourself to feel all your emotions, you are made stronger than whatever situation is bringing the emotions up and you will have the power to change your circumstances.

Decisions you make determine your life path. Don't spend time worrying about your future or trying to divine it, be it's creator. 


You do this by conserving your energy for the things and people in life that matter to you. 

There are a lot of distractions in the modern world and it's easy to build thousands of meaningless connections, or give time to empty pleasures. Give your energy to those who are genuine and kind to that which is good and profitable in life. 

Your father loves you very much. He wants to give you every toy, pleasure and delight this world has to offer. If he has his way you are going to be very very spoiled. 

I hope you learn to say no to things that delight but aren't good for you or come at the expense of someone else. Be healthy in mind and body. Fill your life with meaning and purpose. Help those less fortunate. 

Let animals and nature teach you what the human world cannot. Spend time in the wild listening. It is where you will find your voice, feel your soul, and heal. 




Rain and thunder may seem scary, but learn to embrace the life giving beauty of each storm both literal and figurative. 

Stand on the edge of cliffs, dive ocean depths, climb mountains, conquer your fears. If something scares you but might be amazing, DO IT.

Fear is what makes rollercoasters, scary movies, and so much more addictive. Be addicted to your life. 

That said weigh your risk vs the reward. Decide if the cost is worth the prize. Don't get addicted to anything that is destructive to mind or body. Be addicted to good healthy things.

Run. Let your heart pound. Swim let yourself be engulfed by the intensity of cold temperatures and swirling currents. Don't stay on the sidelines waiting for the perfect moment. JUMP IN. Connect with your body, people, the world. 

You will be hurt and disappointed but keep opening your life up to the possibility of good. There is so much good in the world and sometimes you won't be able to see that through the pain but good is always there waiting to be let in. 

Anyway my dear little one, I hope I will be around to teach you all these things and help you through every difficulty, but on the off chance something happens to me, I want you to have this. I want you to know no matter what, I'm glad to have the experience of you growing in my body, kicking, punching, stretching, twisting, laughing. Every hiccup, every not my emotion, that I've felt from you, is a delight. 

I've been nauseous almost every day, and pregnancy has been hard, but you, even unborn you, has been a gift. You have become my motivation as you share your secrets and we work to build you a precious and wonderful body ready to take on the world. 

I hope everything I've done so far has benefitted you and blessed you. I've done my best and soon we're going to meet. I look forward to holding you, you my sweet little everything. 

May You Always Feel My Love For You, 

Sincerely,

Your Imperfect Mother

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