Ashley Needles

We finally went on a second date! He was so excited to see me he didn't get much sleep the night before. A photo of Res by himself since the lighting in the one of us together made his blond hair fall out.  🤣 😂 😜 When I arrived he had this box waiting.  He made it for me during our time apart and filled it with treats for Messy and gifts for me. I like him because while he's not perfect, he tries. He admits his weaknesses, can say sorry, and accepts that I'm flawed too. We have a lot of common values and beliefs,...           So maybe... Maybe, it's time to hope for more than a glimpse of what could be. Maybe this time my heart won't get broken and maybe the guy who's easy to talk to, who thinks I walk on water, who is understanding, full of patience and incredibly kind will stay for more than a few precious moments in my life...

So as my video (about not dating single dads) was uploading yesterday, I took Messy on a walk, during which we met a HOT single dad , his six-year-old daughter and their dog. As we talked he learned I'm nomadic, child-free and he still asked for my number... I hesitated but gave him the digits. Suspecting he isn't looking to settle down or for anything serious... My thoughts, it might be fun for a bit, maybe he'll be interesting, maybe I'll learn something through dating him... Suddenly today I realized the oddity in how I view dating compared to most people. I have no hope or expectations of long term. And maybe that's why my relationships are fleeting but deliciously sweet because I don't feel bitterness when things inevitably end. Or maybe my relationships have the shelf life of a ripe banana because as we parted ways I noticed a text from the guy who thinks I walk on water but lives 2 hours away... telling me to call him and so before I was even out of ear...

Okay, maybe I've become too much of a hermit and too picky since my last relationship about a year ago. My neighbor's friend is now teasing me about the lack of men or man in my life. I'd like to tell him he's wrong, but in the last year I've gone out on less dates than I have fingers on one hand. I just haven't been that interested in the guys I've met. Mostly I just don't feel like there is much point to dating or relationships anymore. While there is currently a guy who thinks I walk on water and who calls everyday, he lives almost 2 hours away and so while it's nice, we've had one date, haven't kissed and I'm completely okay with that. Right now what most excites me are a few set goals I have. I feel excited about the days where I make $1200 or make progress in some other way. I want to get back to writing and I want to get a degree and I want to build my residuals up high enough to live on without working so I can focus on writing an...