Ashley Needles

David, I want you to know I am grateful for how everything happened. I never thought I could be so happy! There are days I cry because the joy is overwhelming.  A lot of that is due to you. After you left me I did a lot of inner work. Because I admired your drive and determination to deal with life I went through tons of hypnosis at first just to ease the pain then for success and drive. I also got super into personal development and neuropsychology which helped me gain an understanding of why we didn't work well together and why I was unhappy when we were married.  Turns out I'm an island wave personality one of the hardest to deal with and I apologize for that.  In our relationship you became the over functioning partner and I spiraled into under-functioning afraid to own my power or acknowledge my needs which caused me to get super depressed.  Being an island personality type when I feel someone holding onto me I retreat emotionally and i...

For the beginning chapters of this adventure click below: NO GREATER LOVE ,               PART TWO                      PART THREE                  The social worker was right behind Alex, her eyes were also wide. "I'm so sorry, I don't know how she found out we were going to be here."             Alex knelt down in front of Angie, hugging her tight to his chest. "It's okay," Alex said in his overly polite walking on glass voice. " Can you make sure she doesn't um follow us in here and that we don't run into her on the way out, please?" The social worker was already nodding. "I uh, don't mean to be a burden, I just don't know what she'll do." Alex finished letting Angie go. As he did, Angie grabbed his hand. Alex hated to ask anything of anyone. He was one of those people who felt...

I feel so blessed. I just finished processing some things with M. He validated my feelings understood my confusion and did all the things I needed to feel sane again as my world and emotions were once again flipped over and muddled up. His ability to listen as I sorted out my new reality and dealt with the cancellation of my favorite real life comedy were epic. He gave me hope that tomorrow my feelings of schadenfreude might return and my unhealthy empathy might pass. While we talked I got a call from another who has been asking to be made into a rock in my life and while it didn't go so great probably due to Justin having a migraine and a misunderstanding of the situation I was so lucky to be cared about enough that he was willing to set aside not feeling great to try to be there. Sometimes it's too much. Sometimes it's overwhelming to be given such perfect love and sacrifice as I have been given by so many of you, by M, by Sam and by Justin. I was ne...