March of 2020 I was getting scheduled for a hysterectomy. Covid hit. The final check-up and diagnostic tests for it were postponed. I wasn't supposed to be able to have kids without surgery. Finally finding a child-free partner who was everything I'd ever wanted, was a dream come true. Despite my medical condition, we used 'protection' just in case. The protection failed, nature found a way, six weeks before that postponed hysterectomy was going to happen. ...several months ago. At first, it felt like my body was violated. Invaded by a pathetic selfish rat/fish I didn't ask for. Held hostage by morning sickness that lasted all day and cramps that made walking across a room a challenge and together these made driving impossible. I felt like a prisoner and victim of the alien parasite taking over my body. Even taking care of mail and keeping up with normal bills was torture. Sitting perfectly still reading anything was like being on a tilt-a-whirl that just didn...
Do your best, take it day by day.