Ashley Needles

I'm in a mood to rant. So bear with me or you know, throw your device on the floor and use it as a trampoline (kidding just click away.) Things guys have said that pissed me off lately and made me laugh: 1. That I need to act stupid and hide my intelligence so he, "Toxic Masculinity," could feel smart. 2. That because I'm a nurturer I need to get used to not being heard or having my needs met. We'll call this guy "The New Sexist Narcissist." 3. A very long tirade about how I should go to bed with a guy's friend because he was showing interest. Most of the tirade was directed at a certain piece of my anatomy. My name for this guy is not appropriate to say publicly, I had tons of fun going full mode WICKED WITCH on him though, and he later apologized, so his name is not quite written in stone. 4. There's more, a lot more, but some of it I'm just not comfortable sharing because of those who are apparently stalking my wall t...

I called M, I tried calling others first but they were busy. I've been told by a mutual friend that I toy and play with his emotions and treat him unfairly. I've been told that unless I want to be with him, I shouldn't have contact. I always make justifications... it's just this once... I've been so good... etc... the list goes on. I called. He answered. He listened while I ranted. He gave selflessly as I told him about my frustrations and how I feel like a failure. I whined about the things not working in my life. He told me I was brave and strong and that I was doing my best. He assured me it was enough and if things got really bad he would be there. We talked about history, about plague victims being volleyed over walls to infect those within in Europe. We talked about China and the Silk Road about movies and tv and how he loves trivia. He asked when I last read for pleasure and not some business or self-deve...